Yesterday I found out that my Mom has breast cancer. She went in a bout a week ago for a biopsy so we had been nervously waiting for the results, and welp now we know. It was kind of surreal hearing the news from my Dad, that morning. He explained what was going on and that they were going to go talk to the doctors and figure out the options and a game plan to deal with the cancer. I got a chance to pray with him, and then later with my mom before they went to work, and After they left I did something I haven't done in a long time. I cried. I realized with all the crazy things that have been going on around me life just keeps seeming to pile up. I thought I wouldn't crack under the pressure I though "hey God's got me I can handle what ever comes my way" but this... This is more than I can Handle alone. I totally trust that God will take care of my Mom, either through an awesome miracle (which is what I'm really hoping and praying for) or through the help of some good doctors who have all said things look good (as good as they can for having cancer) and that they expect this cancer will not end in death.
I write this because I realized how much I am like my mom and dad. See my parents had known the results for a couple of days and didn't tell me, or anyone really until they thought they were going to go to the hospital for surgery (don't worry no surgery have occurred yet) Knowing them they didn't want to worry me or be a burden. When they finally told me the news I first wondered why did they wait to tell me, and that's when God reminded me how I do the same thing, I wait until the breaking point... and sometimes long after the breaking point before asking for help. God allowed me to see today that I am not as unbreakable as I though. after My parents left for work all I could do was pray, cry, and play and sing this song
I'd appreciate prayer for my mom's health, and for my family as we go through this. I'll admit I'm feeling kind broken and lost But no matter what Happens over the next few months I will Continue to trust that God is good, that He is working all this out for good, and that some how it will turn out for the best for my family even when I don't understand why things are happening the way they are.
(some verses that God's laid on my heart to keep me focused on his goodness in the middle of this)
John 11:4 When he heard this, Jesus said, "This sickness will not end in death. No, it is for God's glory so that God's Son may be glorified through it."
Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose
Psalm 43:5 Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
(I read these and I wonder how God will work everything out but I have to trust, and hope that Since he's brought my family this far he hasn't brought us this far to leave us)
God bless, thanks for reading and thanks for praying,
-L.J.
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